i just finished making my bed. clean sheets. nothing beats clean sheets.
while putting the final pillowcase on my pillow (my favorite pillow – a feather one that has been slowly falling apart for the past 10 years. i dont know what im going to do the day it does die. im slightly worries, as new holes have been appearing quickly.), i noticed a sock sitting out a box of stuff my mom mailed me months ago. the box is sitting to the right of my desk and is filled with knickknack items i havent needed yet. (a quick glance into teh box reveals: a shirt, a sweater, an old phone battery and some chemical brothers posters john gave me.)
this sock is a black structure sock, with a purple violet and green vince on it (circa 1993). most of my structure socks from then (10 years ago) have finally started giving up the ghost, but they are so good. where else could you get dress socks with roosters on them? they were nice and a good combo of being less than plain and still dressy. sadly, structure has ceased making socks like that and i have never found somewhere that fill that void for me.
this particular sock is one of a pair (duh). im not sure where the other is, since i stopped wearing matching socks about a year and a half ago. it seemed like more work and less fun. so i stopped.
anyway, i havent worn this sock in ages, as evidenced by the fact that it is hanging out of this box.
why?
because its a bad luck sock.
im not kidding. its been so long, i cant swear on it (the circumstances). but im 99% sure that i wore these socks to prom. perhaps both proms. they were the socks i wore when karen and i broke up. i think they have other bad luck implications, but thats where it started.
now im paranoid to wear them, for fear of them bringing badness into my day (emotional or not).
i wondered why i had kept them all this time since i felt this way. id rather wear a dirty pair of socks than those. there simply is no way i want to wear them. because of my own superstitions.
and the answer is – i dont know. i dont know why i have kept them. in my sock drawer. passed over for years.
but in typing this out, im going to have to wear them. its a silly superstition perhaps. but its one i cant justify anymore.
when i can work up the courage, im going to wear my violet socks. who knows – maybe ill even make sure they match that day.
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