‘when you think he likes you then you like the way he thinks’

Eleven days of radio static and your voice flickering. It’s still warm now, an ember of a memory that’s yet to cool into something dusty and solid.

Why you called is beyond me. It’s a quiet Sunday afternoon, which means hard work on challenging issues, and the telephone rings. I didn’t pick it up; I was busy staring at my name in a stranger’s handwriting.

And no, I haven’t written or called in ages. That’s partly a schedule with a vice grip that compresses these expansive days and partly a devotion to collecting the shards of monastic sequestration that embed themselves like shrapnel in Sunday afternoons like these.

The radio flickers in and out of reports of killers on the loose. Yes, I have insulated myself from those would-be attacks, but not how or why you thought. Choose your own adventure.

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Hustling, pick pocket, that’s the way to get rich

Who knew that purchasing a place would be so expensive. Looks like those plans are on hold until early next year. Other than that, I’m holding steady, looking for me next big thing. I love my life right now, I’m embracing everything I can, and living more for the now than I have in years. Good things are coming, I can feel it.

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Life: Atomic Weight of 28

Note: I realize posts about my kids might get tiresome for some out there, but frankly, this just knocked me on my ass.

It’s the morning hustle and bustle, as usual. I’ve actually got the kids fed, dressed (with shoes on!) and headed towards the door and nobody’s crying. And I’m only like five minutes late. Amazing, right? But wait, there’s more.

Sure. I stayed up late fixing lunch and laying out clothes and stuff. But we had to get to the auto shop to drop off the car and pick up a loaner before heading off to the rest of the day. I hadn’t stopped moving since 6:30 when ’Bekah got up. Play, change diaper, feed, play, dress, cook, wake, dress, potty, feed, pack, go. I was moving. My sweet boy is trying to tell me about the words he made yesterday with his letter puzzle, pulling the letters of the alphabet and making words with them. We’d been playing with A, T and R. He made ‘rat’ and I suggested switching the ‘t’ and the ‘r’ to make ‘tar.’ So this morning, as I’m swiftly moving everything toward the door, he tells me he rearranged them to make ‘art.’ Which, hey, I thought that was pretty cool. And he had other letter combinations laid out on the floor, too, I noticed.

“Is N-I a word?”
“No, sweetie, N-I is not a word.” He had the ‘n’ lying next to the ‘i’, and of course I start making dumb jokes about the Knights of Ni. Sure. A four-year-old is going to get that.
“Yeah,” he says “It’s an abbreviation.” Abbreviations are our new favorite thing. I had to explain to him that you couldn’t abbreviate T.V. to just ‘T’ because TV was an abbreviation itself. I don’t think he bought it.
“An abbreviation?” I ask, continuing our movement to the garage and thinking he’s just playing. “Of what?” We’re going through the door.
“Nickel.”
He continues walking to the car with his little hat on and his socks pulled up to his knees and I stand there in my tracks, bags over my shoulder, baby in my arms, keys in my hand, running through the abbreviations from the periodic table in my head.
“Yep. Yep, Ni is an abbreviation for nickel.”

Holy. Crap.

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‘kid nation’

vulture writes about what must be the best show ever, kid nation:

In case you’ve been living under a rock, KN will star 40 kids, ages 8 to 15, who are left to survive for 40 days in a New Mexican ghost town with no parents — a premise that was surely conceived by the smartest angels in the most beautiful part of heaven.

For some reason, … critics are upset about the fourteen-hour days the children were reportedly forced to work or the insufficient medical attention received by the four rascals who accidentally drank bleach on set.

yeah.
fuck ‘scott baio is 45…’ and its second season. this kid nation business is where the action is.

seriously, who greenlit this thing? how many people thought that this wouldn’t cause problems? and how messed up am i that i can’t wait til watch this show?

but before you attack me, i would never ever let my kid do it.

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monday night

ah, yes.

so monday’s are a magical day where we all carry ourselves out to the local dive bar, ugly’s, for the $1 pbr special. none of us (except for kurt) drink the pbr, but it has been a good tradition and it somehow makes the week a little easier to slip into.

sadly, most everyone who began coming week after week has slowly found other things to do on monday nights. usually now, its just r & i plus mike and kurt. john makes it sometimes too. beyond that, not so much.

monday night it didn’t matter though. i realized it was almost certainly the anniversary of the routine, meaning we have been drinking there on monday nights for a solid year now. it also turns out that the bar has been sold and will be redecorated in the next week or so.

this redecoration involves: taking all the crap off the walls, painting said walls, cutting the bar off (wonderfully, in the same place we sit) and adding dart boards there. it was a huge bummer to hear all of this — this is the closest bar to us and the threat of it turning into something horrible and lame is terrifying.

so i drank away my woes. the bartender, rachel, played a ton of metal. mike played a few songs. kurt debated whether he could tell bartender rachel that her nickname needed to be ‘ugly rachel’ so that we could tell rachel and rachael apart. i told him he might as well ask if her nickname could be something like ‘fat ass rachel.’ (bartender rachel is neither fat nor ugly, for the record. kurt tried to explain how it was ok since it would be ironic. or sarcastic. or something.)

there were 2 older women there who were batshit insane. one went into a tirade about the lack of people in the bar. kurt, from across the room, raised his hand and said ‘im a person’. then she started talking about men. and asked him to come sit by her. he got frightened. of course, then he had to play pool with her a bit later. and kept running back to us, shivering because she had touched him.

during bartender rachel’s songs, she played ozzy — ‘no more tears’. as the song began, my rachael says ‘who is this? is this the pet shop boys?’

if i hadn’t been drunk, i might have been less upset. or more. i don’t know. it hurt me on the inside though, badly. so much so that once we got home, i drunkenly exclaimed ‘if you had asked me hours ago if i would marry a girl who didn’t know the difference between ozzy osborne and pet shop boys, i would have said no!’ and i meant it.

yeah, that went over well.
at least, i think it did(n’t). because i don’t remember a ton after leaving the bar. i know we sat on the curb near our apartment and talked for a while. and i said a lot of things i think i meant in theory but lacked the tact or intelligence to temper at the time. and then said that before sleeping.

of course, when i was reminded of this statement in the morning, i stood by it. i think i do now even.

all in all, a really fun evening and it def got me out of the tfb mood i was in prior in the day. did i miss anything guys?

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tfb

today was better than yesterday. i’m speaking about the daylight hours, because last night was pretty awesome and deserves its own post.

yesterday sucked. i was in a rotten mood for a variety of reasons and everything that i cam across evoked one singular response. so unrelenting was this message that i had to make a new desktop for myself to fully enjoy it.

to provide background and explain the roots of what i was muttering, watch this:

and then have at my desktop:
tfb

yes, my friends, as i explained to my manager: elvis had his tcb (“taking care of business”). i have my tfb.

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in response to tripps comment on last post

was going to respond to tripps post on my last post, but i decided to just post again. i was thinking how difficult it is to 1. get up the courage to talk to a girl in the fist place. and then 2. talk to her while waiting for the train? for some reason, it just seems like an odd place to strike up a conversation, but maybe i’m just being way too dramatic. there is nothing wrong with being friendly. and if the girl isn’t interested in talking to you further, then just leave it at that. maybe the fact that the girl was reading a book is even reason to strike up a conversation. who knows what could happen.
in a related story, today on the way home im waiting for the train. the platform is crowded, its hot. i just left work, and i dont really want to talk to anyone, i just want to get into an air-conditioned train car and ride home. but this guy walks up and stands beside me. i am not wearing my ipod and not reading a book. he asks me about when the train comes and if all these people will fit in the train. so i give him a short answer, and i think to myself for a sec. ‘fuck man, another gay dude is hitting on me’ (because for some reason this week seems to be the gay dudes hit on bitzao week, and im getting quite tired of it.) but he seems harmless enough and he asks me another question about the train. and then i say to him ‘where are you from’. i learn that he is from portland, is married, has kids, and just went to the MOMA.
okay, so this gives me hope. but then there is the whole commuting thing. lets just say i do meet a girl on the subway and we hit it off. if we have the same commute every day, how much is that going to suck if things don’t work out.

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