whoa

getting sick has made me realize the pace i've been keeping myself at since i've had to stop a lot of my routine this past week or so in order to rest up. i'm also thinking more about my job; i've set myself up enough in this city now to the point where i can look at it as more than just a paycheck. my immediate reaction is eww, maybe i should just keep looking at it like that to save myself the headache.

i'm also feeling strangely positive about my grad school plan, despite the fact that it is a mediocre plan and my general pragmatic/blunt view on things has had me getting down on my own plan. i'm thinking now that i'm going to get into the program i want, and really once that happens i'll just assault all classes and destroy them, and come out three years later hopefully for a summer of something interesting only to dive back into a doctoral program. it took me a long time to figure out what i really wanted to do; knowing now has lifted a great weight. the only stress that remains is whether or not i'll get into the program i want, and this week that stress is pretty insignificant.

oktoberfest is this saturday. i like gamefly. i love being 25. i almost wanna go back in time to fifteen year old me and hi-five myself; and nay-say the nay-sayers back then too. almost.

peace