i'm going to start stabbing people

suggested track: "just another victim" by helmet/house of pain

today is bad. i am beyond stressed about my financial situation. if i don't get this loan i am so fucked. beyond fucked. and it's all i can think about. if i have to leave next semester, it's just going to be bad news. i'll fucking lose my shit.

the dps was a wreck this morning. i was pissed. people are telling me stories of what it is like when they try and print while jonas is working. i get more pissed. the encad is essentially out of black ink, and no matter how hard i try, once it starts to print, the black will stop. this makes me more pissed. i can't refill the reservior, because michael keeps all of the ink locked up in his office. nothing i can do. once again something i have no control over, and it's making me insane. on top of that there are a bunch of undergrad designers who need their posters printed out, and this doesn't work, because they all use illustrator which sucks. these printers do not like illustrator, which makes me hate it. worthless program, especially for what these people are doing.

and now… eric isn't coming to new year's. fucking bullshit. i found a way, he should goddamnit! this is something i didn't want to hear. all i want to be doing now is drawing and painting and printing, and not tending to other people's prints. i think eric will regret this decision.

i did get my copy of the david lynch catalog from tandem on friday. very nice book of his prints, and it's signed. pretty sweet. i'm still in a terrible mood though. i hope lenore's qualifiers went okay.