i have ten minutes

until i have to go get my pad thai from next door for dinner. i shouldnt be eating this way still, because tuesday was my FINAL review. i should be finished. but instead, i had a research project to finish today (what was supposed to be a 15-20 page paper became a 50page book that i wrote and designed, so im not sure which wouldve been less painful in the end)… and i still have a motion piece hanging over my head. im not sure why my professor is making me refine it, but he is.

my final crit went swimmingly. amazingly. beautifully. i was smiling ear to ear all evening tuesday. i was in a bit of shock, but for once, my final crit had been mostly what i thought it would be and also a lot better than i had expected. i have worked really, really hard this semester and im just glad it paid off. i was worried that i would still be so far behind everyone that the semester would be a disaster. and there is still a long road ahead of me. and even a long road just for next semester. but im making progress, at least, which is more than i can say for last year.

i dont go home until monday. i wish it were a little sooner, but i know i have plenty to do until then. lots of laundry, lots of cleaning, going to the gym, cleaning up my studio space, christmas shopping, and sleeping. it's amazing how full my life is and how hard i have to work to keep it going and somewhat organized. and that feels so so good compared to the boredom that was otherwise known as dc. i like working hard. i like working hard so much that i am already dreading the day i graduate. i dont want to be a workaholic, but i do hope im able to have a life i enjoy. because i enjoy the one i have now. and i enjoyed the summer a great deal. and id love it if i could somehow blend those two lifestyles into one life and live it after i leave new haven.

i know i havent been writing lately. i also havent been calling my friends or family and ive barely been IMing. i dont think it's going to change until i leave new haven. so my apologies. you just wont get the nitty gritty details you used to get, i suppose.