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i went to walmart tonight, kind of by accident. i had been to target, and got a few things, and they were closing as i was shopping and i was nearly the last out of the store. only to realize id forgotten a couple things. so i went to walmart just to get them out of the way. and i was greeted with ugly people…teenagers with babies, people buying their kids junk they didnt need, rednecks in hunting clothes yelling on cell phones. i really never want to shop there again.

im going to watch _you, me and everyone we know in a few minutes. i rented it while i was out. i hope it's good.

since ive been sleeping so much lately (ie, 10 or 11 hours almost every night since ive been home), ive been having crazy dreams. very realistic and real-life. which is kind of odd. usually i dream about impossible events. but most of my recent dreams have been about the studio at school. last night i dreamt that i had to write a huge paper for my academic class and i wasnt sure i could get it done. and then someone did a really stupid project that was a projection on the wall in one of the bathrooms at school. and then i fake-remembered that prelims have to pass their first year or they arent invited back for the second or third years, and i got worried about my friend bethany. she worked with me at geo and now sits next to me in the studio (a complete accident) and i got very sad about the idea that she might not be returning for the next two years. but then i woke up and realized that isnt actually true; no one really fails in the program.

tomorrow night i think im going to some parties with my parents and then over to alex's house to see him and thomas. it should be a quiet evening, which is what i am looking for. i hate the idea that new year's is some huge event. wherever i am living in a few years, i want to have a new year's dinner party that lasts all night. and i want it to be a tradition…good wine, good friends, good music, good clothes, good food, good apartment, good time.