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today is a day that i just want to be in a house with giant couches, tea kettles with tea, warm fires, and a dog. i want to lie around with someone and do nothing but watch movies or read the paper or make out. instead, i went to the gym this morning, had a nice lunch at my house, spent the afternoon trying to find a lightbulb that would fit the lamp i bought at ikea yesterday (and i cant find one b/c something is wrong with the lamp, meaning i have to go back to ikea, except i cant b/c i dont have a car), and now im making a backdrop for the picture-taking-place for the art school prom, which is tonight. i do not think i am going. i wouldve liked to go, but i feel like shit and i have a ton of work to do. my week is fucked. and all i want to do is take a nap.

i am perfectly happy in new haven. really. i have most everything i need. i like my apartment and i like the people here. i just long for my own house. the serenity of living with someone i love. and having a dog. and no kids for a long time. and wood floors and big couches and modern furniture. i am missing virginia desperately. i am missing a lot of things today.