knocked up nine months ago

the shitty week is coming to an end. im feeling better after long talks with lisa and bethany today. they both helped put things in perspective.

ive been going to the gym, going on runs, and tanning in the last few days. those things make me feel nice. i had thought my legs were getting the same workout as my heart when i was running on the treadmill in the last few months, but jesus was i wrong. despite always running with an incline, and switching my inclines and paces throughout, my legs were like jelly a few days ago when i tried to run up the steep quarter-mile hill that's on my route. which really pissed me off. ive been ignoring the leg press at the gym because my legs are the least of my concern, but it's obvious now that that was a bad plan. so no ive been doing the leg press, and running the hill, and made it to the top today (only the third try, which i suppose isnt absurd, but it's pretty bad considering ive been running three or four times a week this semester on the treadmill). the good news/bad news for me is that the gym will close on the 13th and not reopen before i leave town so i'll have to make up for that by running and doing push ups and abs on my pilates ball at home. in ways, it'll be harder because running is way harder than running on a treadmill, but then again, ive been doing an hour of cardio at the gym — running outside and then doing the erg and the elliptical afterwards — so it'll be hard to replicate that since im in no shape to run for an hour at a time currently. maybe by may 30. doubtful.

ive been craving ice cream like crazy in the last few weeks. and i only have old ice cream at my house. i need to go to the store.

i just dont know what else to tell you. the photo opening happened. i went to the after party but bolted for multiple reasons. the exhibit looks great. i have a final silkscreening crit on wednesday and i havent done a thing for it (not smart). classes are finished and final review is may 10. working hard until then.

xo.