II

Pt. 3

4/30/2002

I really need things to calm down for a while. These past few weeks have been extremely stressful and draining. Thankfully, there hasn't been any huge developments in the past couple of days, and I would love for it to stay that way. This endless parade of human tragedy that I've been subjected to at work, while not directly affecting me, is still taking its toll. This month has been nothing but one bombshell event or revelation about employees at work after another, and enough is enough. It's hard to have someone that you're worried about and realize that there isn't much that you can do to help them, but to have five or six cases of this going on at the same time is hard to take. I'm so glad April is finally over.

Pt. 4

4/21/2002

Q:
Which is worse, having to look your husband in the eye every day and lie and pretend nothing happened in front of people who know the truth, or being the husband who's in the dark?

A:

I don't know, but I'm pretty sure that being addicted to heroin is worse than either one. Yes, I just found out that another person who works for me is addicted. I have known a few people with the same problem before, and one thing I do know is that there aren't many ex-heroin addicts. There are, however, many, many ex-living heroin addicts. It's possible to give it up, and I hope against all hope that it will happen in this case, but this is a person in a very bad situation. It's one of those where you can say you want help and be halfway in denial at the same time. Very scary. I really don't want to hear any more bad news this month. Too much to think about, too much to worry about, practically nothing I can do. I really need things to calm down for a while.