Cause we're always falling away, falling away again

Is it normal to consider yourself an optimist if you have trust issues? Because I guess that's what makes me a "realist."

I have huge trust issues, mainly because those who have always been the closest to me have let me down. And I'm not talking about forgetting to call me back, or picking me up late. Besides one of my best friends (who to be honest, hasn't been too close until recently), every person who has been close to me has disappointed me at some time. For the most part, I move on with my life without them. Only once have I let someone who hurt me back in, and that proved to be the right move…I'm rambling. Basically, I saw the collapse recently of something I thought I knew and understood, something that I was building my life around, and it really sucked for a while. But the amazing thing, at least to me, is how quickly I've been processing and dealing with it. Life goes on.

And, ironically to me, this renaissance has a lot to do with my friends being so bad ass (which kind of negates my earlier talk of people letting me down, but I digress). My friends have been amazing, and the last month has seriously been one of the best in my life. They have helped take what should have been a really rough time in my life and made it unbelievable fun. The kind of sad thing is I know that almost none of them will ever read this (except for the few posters on the site who have been so awesome lately; you know who you are). Anyways, thanks for being there when I've needed you. I'll try not to let you down.