'i'll know when i get there'

i made it through a first and second interview at my "writer geek" school, as my assistant principal put it, and am now waiting to hear back. i made it from the round of 13 applicants to the sudden death one of just me and one other. i've been told what an accomplishment this is, blahblah, but really i just feel like it will make it all the more shitty if i don't get the spot.

i feel kind of bad keeping the PHHS people in limbo as i wait for the other decision; a tiny piece of me would like to just accept the first offer and be done with it. the location kicks ass; if i live in the area where i'd planned to move, i would be able to walk to work. placement at the writer geek school would cause some major residence rethinking - maybe even upper upper upper manhattan.

my super duper yard sale is being rushed into this coming weekend; july is shrinking before my eyes and i feel like most my days are spoken for. it's so strange to be rushingrusginrushing forward when i'm not sure exactly where it is that i am going.