'i don't want you to be a copycat'

i am thrilled that WW is forcing me back into cooking. i have missed cooking and i think kinda wrote off doing it here in my mini-kitchen. but, i can make do, and tonight had goat cheese and carmelized onion quesadillas for dinner. sooo yummy. i currently have a huge thing for goat cheese. although in the world's smallest apt it is a bit of a challenge to get rid of cooking smells.

this evening on my way to gilda's i stopped to by a card at barnes and noble and i am pretty darn sure i saw sofia coppola among the stacks, browsing. i tried not to stare, but i don't know if i am really good at that yet.

allie turns one tomorrow. i am a little sad not to be out there for the celebration. i'm hoping to get out to CO next month for our week of "mid-winter recess" but at the moment that seems really far away. i want to ski and see my niece and go to casinos but i am more hesitant to be with my sister and brother-in-law for a week. it makes me sad even to admit that. i don't think our relationship is horrible, it's just been so …strained… at times recently, and i worry that being there with her and the baby i will just continue to do the things that frustrate her so much. and i hate being in an environment in which i feel like i can not flee if needed. i like having an escape hatch.