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petunia

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31 mar 2006 :: 10:07pm

i just applied for a credit card. i have not had one in a few years, not since the big intervention my parents had with me in which my 3 cards were chopped up. they paid my cards off and i went onto a payment plan paying them back. i don't need a credit card, but i need to build good/better credit. i feel hesitant to tell my dad about the card i just applied for though, lest he think i am heading down the same financial path of hell that i did in college.

it's been a big week for my relationship with my dad. for the first time in a really long time, i did something -admitted something to him- that he really disapproved of and disappointed him. it made me realize that since my mom died i have been busting my ass to be the perfect daughter, and i didn't even know it. i keep having to remind myself that it's totally normal to have conflict with parents. i certainly had more than my fill of it back in the days of teen angst when i was a nasty little deviless. but i'm not evil like that any longer, so i should be able to handle this, right?

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