'it's getting darker instead of lighter'

the better the weekend trip to VA, the shittier the return trip to NY. a day's delay also has not seemed to help these particular blues. nor the gloomy weather. nor being premenstrual. nor pre-mother's day emotion. nor pre-my-mom's birthday emotion. man.

i might have to force myself not to post anymore during or about these mope sessions. if i annoy myself to be voicing these same feelings, i can only imagine what it must be like for you, my dear reader. feel free to quickNote me if you have any suggestions on how i can get my shit together doing this long distance relationship thing. but please be nice. my emotional fragility could crack with meanness right now.