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petunia

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31 jan 2007 :: 06:13pm

i own a lot of things.  like, a lot.  books clothes music purses groceries appliances i just have a lot of stuff.  i wonder what it is that compels to surround myself with so many possessions.  it seems contradictory that i don't consider myself to be materialistic.  maybe my concept of materialism is just off.  i don't covet a lot of fancy things or bust my ass to have things to brag about.  i just am more comfortable surrounded by stuff.

i've been trying to be thriftier with my book habits.  maybe that's not the most optimal place to develop better spending patterns, but it's been quite awhile since i have left B&N with a bulging handle bag.  i enjoy re-reading and have been trying to discipline myself into re-reading 4-5 books i already own before buying a (one) new one.  it seems to be working.  i enjoy old favorites and relish the selection and devouring of something new.

in my younger days (what, am i 80?) i was a bit of a library freak.  in the 80s when the world went plastic, my library card was always so cracked and worn that my mom gave me a little plastic case to keep it in.  as an adult i haven't been to the library in ages.  i don't even have a library card here in staunton, which is almost an embarassment to admit, not only as an avid reader, but as a reading specialist, for goodness' sake.

i am rough on books, though.  i almost always tote one with me in my purse (one of  the reasons necessitating my large-enough-to-smuggle-a-small-child bags).  i eat when i read, i take books to the gym, and they also accompany me into my beloved bubble baths.  my books rarely stay pristine.  i'd like to think that subconsciously i don't borrow books from the library because i wouldn't be able to treat them as well as i should, but somehow i'm just not that…good.