we'll kiss just as before

i've gotten pretty awful about posting. i'm back in portland for a couple of weeks and get impatient with dial-up.

my eye has been feeling slightly funny for the past few several days but is almost back to normal. thats what i get for getting it licked.

i wonder if i will feel as home at home once i have a place thats really mine elsewhere. i realized that part of what makes my room my space is my book collection. i always think its interesting to see what books people have, and unless i move them seperately i won't have any of my standards around me in the new place.

i've been cooking a decent amount since i've been home– getting domestic, trying new recipes. my nesting instinct is perhaps kicking in. very weird. i hope that tripp and i do meals well with our very different diets.

i've been seeing grammy doris every day, but not for that long. she had a fall a few days before i came home and her bruises and scrapes are still healing up. its difficult seeing her seeming her age. i'm used to taking her out places and spending long afternoons chatting but she doesn't have the energy right now. i don't like people getting older, it scares me.

my uncle jon might be coming out for a weekend which is exciting. i wish i had the means to just travel around and visit people for a while, but the next best thing is to have them come to me.

thinking about it, i guess i'm very family oriented. i'm loving spending so much time with my grandparents and am looking forward to seeing them when i head back to LA. after living at their house i feel more at ease with them than i think i have since i was little. its nice.

i checked a bunch of books out of the library and think i was too optomistic. i finished small world by david lodge which was enjoyable, but at this rate i won't get through all the books during the time i have.

i think its bedtime.