no need to endure

i felt sick on the airplane yesterday coming back from tampa. i'm not sure if it was eating crap airplane snacks instead of real meals, air sickness, dehydration, or what. i managed not to throw up on the plane, but if anyone driving last night on the 405 saw someone with their head sticking out the window of a lexus puking…well, i hope i didn't splatter your car.

i did get a certain sense of satisfaction somehow, as if vomiting onto the freeway was somehow an insult to this city and the kind of traffic it has where there's no way to pull over to use just the side of the road. or, maybe its more territorial. like a dog pissing on a tree. ha, i own you, city!

florida was humid and pouring down rain and windy. i guess thats what happens when tropical storms are near. the hotel room i was sharing with my parents ended up wet from the rain. it was such heavy rainfall and was going sideways because of the wind. it poured in under the door to the porch, and between the window and air conditioning unit.

lily and keith's wedding was beautiful. the ceremony itself was brief, but moving. the reception was fun. all vegan food, a good band, and performances from singers, actors, dancers, and a bagpiper.

it was great fun meeting family friends lily's folks have gathered along their many moves. i really enjoyed speaking with one friend in particular, who works in brooklyn and will be a great person to know if we do end up in new york.

i've read so many books since i last noted that its going to be hard if not impossible to remember them all. i'm noting them mostly for my own benefit because i like to have a record of what i've read, especially if i don't own the books.

i read sacred time and floating in my mother's palm, both by ursula hegi. i tend to do this thing where i'll find an author i like and then i'll read everything i can find that they've written. i read reversible error by tanenbaum and key witness by freedman. i read dress your family in corduroy and denim by david sedaris. i read the joy luck club by amy tan. i read the first immortal by james halperin. crap, i'm sure there are others i'm forgetting, but thats all i can think of.

it was nice to see my parents and sis this past weekend. its really pretty rare for all of us to be in the same space. it was also nice getting to dress up. while everday i prefer to be casual, i love getting to wear pretty things. i guess i'm not as much of a tomboy as i like to think.

the weeks seem to be stretching out before me. its been so long that i've had set plans. i knew i was going to portland, then when i got back to LA i knew i was going to florida. now, i have weekend plans for july, but nothing major and so its starting to feel like i'm living in a space instead of just visiting. i actually unpacked from my duffels and put some clothes in drawers in what is currently my bedroom at my grandparents' house. its a nice, settled feeling (i love feeling settled), but i'm concerned it will make me feel more antsy. my grandpa had some work for me today in his office and i was grateful. i need to accomplish things in order to feel useful and its so much easier if the things aren't my personal goals. sadly, i'm much more likely to follow through.