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i feel both antsy and content these days. content because i'm happy with life, happy in love, and my family is doing well. antsy because i'm impatient by nature and i don't know what i'm doing with my life yet. i've been scoping out grad schools trying to eliminate focusing on this next job step, but it isn't going so well. i still lack focus and i need focus in order to have the drive that will make working my butt off to succeed exciting rather than tedious. so far i have found only one program that i find exciting. its a joint jd/ma and it is exceedingly unlikely that i could get in to either program. anything is possible if i work myself hard enough, but it isn't worth it to me yet.

i spent last weekend in santa monica with zoe-dog and jordan. it was nice spending time there, and playing with a dawg, even if the doggy did shamelessly compete for tripp's attention to the extent of climbing into bed with us (uninvited) and using tripp's chest as a pillow.

i went through a reading rush for a few days, reading disclosure, the robber bride, prodigal summer, and the curious incident of the dog in the night-time each in a day. it averages out because i've been slogging through jonathan strange & mr. norrell for the last several. i can't decide if i like it or not. i find it dry at times and then very engaging.

i was going back over GRE words yesterday. i think all the reading has helped because there were some that i knew this time round that i'd marked last time. i've marked words where even if i can use it in a sentence, i can't define it. its surprising how many words there are like that. more of that variety than the ones that i truly don't know. i've also begun to try to gain back some of my spanish vocabulary. it would be so nice to know another language. i kick myself for taking a five year break from it because so much has evaporated. i'm hoping that this time around the common errors i would make won't be re-learned. i'm still in an optomistic phase i guess. the understanding that i'm incompetent with second languages has not fully set in yet.

yay! my grandpa was on hold this entire post (thank you for holding. your call is important to us. please do not hang up) and it was just answered!

on that note, breakfast.