maybe she's an intellectual

i'm leaving tomorrow for L.A.

the move is creating a swirl of positive and negative emotions. i'm excited about moving in with tripp, and looking forward to see him. i'm looking forward to 'being on my own'. its difficult because that isn't going to happen for a while– i'll be in LA, but things will still be in the air for a little while. leaving home is always hard for me, and its especially rough because i don't know if i'll be home like this again– casual, an extended stay…still feeling like a kid. i know that while there will be rough patches i'll be fine once with tripp, but transitions have a way of sucking and its especially hard because i'm surrounded by family members who would be happier if i didn't leave.

uncle jon managed to squeeze in time for one last portland visit while i'm home which is a treat. we're both leaving tomorrow and i feel bad about leaving my mom with total responsibility for my gram after the upper of having both me and uncle jon around.

new years was low key this year. it was just family and the celebration part was in teh form of pigging down salad, artichokes, hungarian mushroom soup, carrot pie, and tiramisu (and toasting with presecco at the new year).

2005 went by so fast. i can't say i imagined that i'd be in this place last new year. still, i think i'm hovering on the brink of something wonderful.