don't want any plastic validation

i'm getting over a cold. its almost gone and wasn't here for long, thank goodness. possibly due to being sick, possibly due to being freezing cold at night, possibly due to oversleeping or whatever weird things are going on in my brain, i've been having really cracked out dreams.

the weird dreams make me wonder about certain reappearing characters and whether they appear when certain feelings are present in my life. i'm being vague but i haven't worked it out yet.

i'm excited that we might have found an apartment. its been very strang going from living with tripp to not really having much coupley time.

i'm still struggling to find jobs to apply for. i think starting next week i will be getting nervous. that starts to be a long time with no job (and no paycheck). i just hate the idea of applying for jobs that i don't actually want.

i'm going to LA this weekend to see family. i'm very excited. as of now, both of my parents are planning on being there. i miss them.