growing up

it has been a very weird week. last tuesday i took the red eye to nyc and met up with my family. we explored manhattan for a couple days. before we went i kept visualizing me, rushing on ahead, my mom right behind me, and my dad and sister, arm in arm, walking slowly and blocking the sidewalk, oblivious of the pace of new york. it wasn't quite as cringe worthy as i'd feared, but the dynamic was definitely exactly what i'd anticipated. still, so nice to see family. nurturing despite the tensions that arise when a family of four, used to independence, ends up sharing a single hotel room. after manhattan we went up to white plains for my cousin's wedding. it was ridiculously lavish, but truly lovely all the same and i had a wonderful time. there were a lot of emotional ups and downs over the week. my uncle j had a heart attack and had bypass surgery- of course, this was while the wedding craziness was going on and it was really strange to be pulled between the two. there was a good phone call during the wedding reception and my mom was finally able to relax for a couple hours. the aftermath has been her breaking the news to my gram and trying to figure out what the plan will be during my uncle's recovery. i'm so grateful that he's ok.