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Life/Parenting: the balloon

It’s bathtime for the the kiddos tonight. There’s a loud pop and I turn to see the girl, my dear daughter, with a look of utter despair upon her beautiful little face. She tries to put the words together, to try to figure out what horror has just visited her and then collapses to the floor, sobbing inconsolably.

Her balloon popped.

And she mourned this thing. Holding the little pieces in her hands she implored me, “Can you fix it, Daddy?”

To an adult, it is just a balloon. One spent balloon in an constant parade of balloons that come into life, pop and then are thrown away. But to a kid, ah. It is something quite different. Not the balloon itself (though this thing that can be shaped into a snake or a scepter or a dog is fantastic to behold), but in how they feel so deeply. They’ve not yet been hardened to life’s fickle ways, not yet learned that joys are so often fleeting. No, they feel it, they feel the loss. They feel it all.

She lay there sobbing over this balloon, and as I tried to comfort her I couldn’t help but feel a little admiration and, yes, even a tinge of envy, for this ability kids have to see everything anew, wonder in amazement, and care so profoundly. Even for a balloon.

There’s a beauty in that.

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Parenting/Life: Three going on twenty-three

Dear Rebekah,
It’s your last full day of being three years old. Tomorrow, you will turn four. This has been such a fantastic year with you, watching you grow and learn, moving from being a toddler to being a little girl. It has simply flown past. I can scarcely believe time can flow like this.

I must admit to being just a little sad this week, as your birthday has approached and you have been filled with such sweet joy and bright enthusiasm. You see, this is quite likely the last time I will have a little three year old to care for. This has been a precious time, being with you. I have loved playing dinosaurs, or being your trusty steed as you rode the trails. I like watching you color, be it doodles or entire family portraits. I’m thankful to see you so at ease in the outdoors, to proclaim something as really dirty, yet go right ahead playing with it because, hey, dirt is kinda neat. Bubbles. Hide and seek. Tootcases. Watching you play in the sand, or throw rocks in the lake. I’ve loved these things because I love you so much. Only, I can’t help but wonder how it has gone by sooooo fast.

You know, thinking on this past year–and even these past few years together–has made me realize that though you are no longer three–and I will miss that–you will still be four this year. And I’m betting there’ll be a whole lot of cool stuff for when you’re four, too.

Just, y’know, don’t grow up quite so fast. Okay?

Love,
Daddy

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