'he shaved his upper arms'

today was a…day. theres a lot to think about today.

1. i didnt sleep really last night. i slept from 10-1, then got up and spent the rest of the night doing homework and putzing around on the computer. well, not putzing around. talking. but i got no real sleep - the 3 hours i slept was on this nasty green sofa. sigh. its like this corner of the den is my hovel now. sigh.
2. one of the main reasons i didnt sleep was because i talked to rachael for an hour. from like 3 to 4. and i wasnt going to stop that for sleep. its a little weird. im worried that i am a little…perhaps over-attached. but in my defense, well, no, thats not what i meant…she doesnt have time for as much as i do. but its frustrating - its taken a week to have a conversation that, in the real world, would have taken about 2 hours. and we havent even finished yet. tripp says this sucks. and i wish i could think of a better answer. all i get are silly silly ideas.
3. walking home from work this afternoon (which was a pain in itself, but more on that in a second), i was really bummed. just frustrated and unhappy. and the thought crossed my mind that if i had known that i would feel this way this afternoon and it was a 3 day weekend and i could afford it (yes, i know, a lot of ifs - but they were all honest. i meant this thought), i would fly out to portland. just because im dumb like that. but it isnt, im cant…you know. i told goose when i got home. he banned me from enacting this plan. possibly ever. he didnt say.
4. to cheer myself up i decided to be a sadist and bleach my hair and re-dye. this time i bleached with bleach. like household laundary bleach. i smelled like pool. and it burned a little though this time i didnt get chemical burns. (ive done this once before but i got burns on my forehead. heehee.) i swear nothing kills hair like straight bleach. my hair should be beautiful soon. feel like straw, but it should look nice. so that cheered me up a little. though i am now stuck for an hour without bein able to wear a shirt. i hate not wearing a shirt. someday ill be ok with my chest.
5. work. and class. i fell asleep in both today. ug. i was dead so i couldnt even think by the time i left. completely drained ('one baby said to another…') though its nice to now be in charge of the intranet and the internet sites. least on the creative/org side. im badass. not really, but its still nice. though not as nice as the absurd amount of money im going to get paid to shave my company's logo into my head next month. oh my yes. a lot of money. so thats nice. but the day drug on forever.

i think thats about it. but thats a lot of thoughts for one day. plus all the little random mutterings cause i was (tim westwood - the hiphop dj on radio 1 just said 'im feeling you tonight' to a female wwf wrestler who is in the studio) that i uttered in frustration…since aubrey mentioned this today - heres my im name: petergoathead. pretty easy eh? feel free to write if you wish…

oh and the site hit 1000 views (or sessions) today. not too exciting really, but its nice, even if most of them are my own. sigh.