'im emotional'

my love for prednisone ended sometime around 11pm last night. im not sure what happened, but my symptoms started returning after a wonderful, clear 6 hours of happiness. i woke up at 4, 5 and 7, spending roughly a half hour in the bathroom each time.

ana warned me last night that it could be up and down; it seems like it is. if this is how it is going to go, i dont know what i am going to do.

ive got some new colon pictures for those of you equally interested in what my insides look like.

thanks to everyone who has phoned, written, etc in the last 24 hours, esp kurt. it has all been much appreciated, even if my voice didnt nec sound it. (tired and drugged can do that.)

now i go try to finish reading 'life is elsewhere' (sorry, matthew, i am not impressed muchly with this one. it just isnt doing anything at all for me.) then some gameboy, comics, maybe a dvd and another book. whoohoo! i guess its nice to have an upside to being unwell - you get to lounge around.

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verified tonight, it seems the steriods only stay in my system for 9 or 10 hours and then i revert to being sick. but tonight we have slowly moved from 95% blood to about 80% blood. and i think something solid may have even exited me this evening.

so thats really foul, i know.

unless something drastic happens, i vow not to talk about my health tomorrow. theres too much other stuff i want to talk about.

like how, no matter how sick i am, it creeps me out to hear my sister talk about getting (or not getting) ass. ug. (sorry cart.)