real quick.

i'm still in the hospital and my hopes for getting out in the next couple of days are pretty much gone. it appears i have a c. diff infection in my large intestine which might be causing all of the problem that i'm having. if this turns out to not be the case surgery looks very likely at the beginning of next week-ish.

right now all i know about surgery is that they would pull out my whole colon, which could mean a colostomy bag for life.

that's worst case still. but it seems to be approaching very quickly.

my cramps have gotten worse and worse. they've brought me back up on morphine, and i'm on 6mg every four hours now. i appreciate everything that people have done. (they took a huge collection for me at work which is one of the nicest things ever). it would be great if people contacted rachael, linda, or carter, and not me anymore because i'm trying to sleep a lot. hopefully my parents and carter will relax a little. they have been very worried and worked up, but i love them.

i don't have any really deep thoughts about anything right now. i'm going to go to sleep now. thank you, miss roxy, for typing.