ive caught some flak over the toilet checks. more than one person has informed me of these things: 1. toilet water is never, ever, ever clean. and 2. the three second rule does not apply to toilets and their water. contamination is instant.
while i appreciate the information, i’m not buying it. and if that’s an issue for you, don’t take a check from me for a couple of months, until i get through this group of them. but ill go home and microwave the entire checkbook. that will kill any pretend germs that are nesting there. then you all can rest easier.
in other news, i am composing a list of things you shouldnt do if you want to successfully manage me.
it seems inappropriate and unprofessional to talk about some of these. i write about most things but i dont like spreading one-sided rumors. or bitching on here. that just seems tacky.
that said, it appears that both my word and my knowledge have been reduced to zero cred by my manager. its getting silly now.
yesterday, i tried to discuss a small design decision that i think we are implementing incorrectly. and i was told that now was not the time to have a dicussion why this was happening. (‘now is not the time’ applied to the general now, not the immediate now.)
im not trying to be tacky here; really, its the opposite. the product i am working on i have been incredibly proud of for months. i have been proud of the work i have done and what i have contributed. but more and more, my hands are being tied and decisions are being made in arbitrary ways. its frustrating. i want this site to be perfect. but i dont believe it will get better if we dont talk through decisions. improvement comes through trying and iterating, discussing and understanding. so im worried when these things dont happen.
i hope it all works out well. it could still be a really cool site in all respects. i just wish i felt like i was contributing more. i dont like feeling like a code monkey.
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a couple of links:
a video from empire strikes back of darth vader being a jackass