'i'm trying to help'

i don't think i will sneak in 15 minutes tonight. it has been a day.

there were many emails traded today all over about patrick. i've also got other balls up in the air. and then managed to end up in a serious conversation with rachael that lasted for several hours.

it was 8 before we made it to exercise, it was 9 before we had dinner. now it is almost 10.30 and i'm falling asleep on the futon. running 2 miles seems to do that to me.

i wish there were more exciting things to say, to discuss. i've been talking about patrick all day, in one form or another. it's exhausting. or draining. or just simply difficult.

tomorrow, i hope to resolve my issues with the state of virginia and my 2004 taxes. that would be ideal. even better if it is resolved without me owing them more money. it will be one less ball in the air really.

the only shining point with this tragedy with patrick is the people i have spoken to again after a long silence. i might get to have dinner and/or drinks with erika and valorie sometime in the next week or two. since i havent seen val since she moved up here and started at pixar, itll be good.

ok, i am simply too tired to get into something meaningful tonight. ill try to get something more substantial up in the morning.